Monday got me like. .....

Happy Monday all. Its 83° here. Fuck that. I live in the land of non air-conditioned domiciled. Its straight up bullshit. 

Anyway heres what you're here for. Ha! Nobody reads this. Its been several days since my last post so I'll give you a few highlights.  

1. Stuck to my diet like crazy. Apart from yesterday when I ate an entire pizza by myself. It was a weak moment for sure. Other than that it was great. 

2. Called the college as well as emailed and never heard back. Atleast I took the first step. 

3. Played candy land and guess who with the kids. That was an absolute blast! 

4. Rode my exercise bike for longer than I ever have! 25 minutes! 

Thats it really. I've lost zero weight so far so im kinda concerned at this point. I expected something. Oh well. Ill keep going as hard as I can for now. Trying to stay accountable and on track.

Weight: 252.0 
Feeling: 3 / 10 thanks to pizza yesterday 🤢 

my son took this. Oh lawd. 

been tracking the distance on the bike at pt so I can see my progress. Not terrible! I did the same today. 

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