My first post....

Hello internet. 

This being my first post I should be introducing myself but let's be real. No one is going to read this post! So I'll skip the blah blah blah me me me and get right to the meat and potatoes of why I'm here. 

I'm fat as fuck. I've got fat in places I didnt think could get fat. Toes I'm looking at you! I've been fat ever since I had my first child and despite yoyo-ing up and down throughout 5 pregnancies I've just remained fat. I'm honestly fucking tired of it. Nothing I do sticks and every stressful or tragic event in my life derails my progress and I end up fatter than when I started. I'm gonna be real once again, I'm also a complete hot fucking mess altogether. My life has gone in circles over the last few years and I'm ready to start working on straightening out those curves. 

So I've decided to make a lasting change. One that I'm planning to commit to whole heartidely. Not just to lose weight but to be a better version of myself. I'm doing it for me. I dont do shit for myself. My life is about caring for everyone else and honestly you cant pour from an empty cup. It's beyond time I got serious and started giving a shit about ME. 

What I'd like the first stage of this journey to look like is as follows: 

1. Transition to a complete whole food plant based diet.

         I'm already a dirty vegan who slips up a lot so this will be a big step.  

2. Start and finish one - thirty day exercise program. 

3. Figure out my career path and enroll in fall classes. 

         I've already filled out my fafsa and started the process so also very achievable. 

4. Work on my mental health, stop avoiding hard feelings healing my trauma. 

         Oof. Im gonna fucking hate this one. I hope you all like crying!! 

My motivation for beginning this blog and making this public is to just basically keep an online diary for myself that I can go back and reflect on as this process moves along. Hopefully being that this is accessible to others I might find as little encouragement and accountability from others on the same path. I hope that if anyone visits my little corner of the internet they find it inspiring and helpful! 

Namaste bitches.